the Grey Area

2005-05-01T21:00:00.000-07:00

its been a long time since i last made an update here. ;) its just so funny how my friends have changed URL's that i've decided to finally move around in this journal. i haven't completely abandoned this site, this is more than two years' worth of insights, poetry and maybe even pictures, pre-digital camera age in my house. so there.just so its clear. i'm not about to let go of this site. :)

2005-03-25T20:20:00.000-08:00

i have to start updating this blog again. why? because some of my friends have set up their own accounts! ;) go blogging!okay.black saturday. less drama. happy thoughts. kase malapit na ang easter!

2005-01-21T23:31:00.000-08:00

just came from a day of prayer for theology, and currently waiting for 4pm to come so that i can have my thesis consultation and get it over and done with. grrr. thesis defense ko na sa tuesday, the one, final blow of my short lit career. and i cant help but anticipate it so that it'll be over.. mehn. its here. college is about to end. and it doesnt get any more palpable than this. i'm done with

2004-12-25T18:59:00.000-08:00

christmas day is over and i'm now officially...fat(ter). it was reunion after reunion, and at times seeing the same set of relatives without even a full twenty-four hours passing. and the coolest way to celebrate christmas day? my cousins and i watched Feng Shui, screaming our heads off and half closing our eyes and half hiding behind pillows. yeah...and my cousin who was 6 years asked me, in

2004-11-27T10:26:00.000-08:00

game. mag-feeling! Dear Santa, i've been a good girl. hence my christmas wish list. 1. NEW CDs! (imago, mishka adams, incubus, session road, etc. etc.) 2. any book (no preference. basta tingin mo may sense, okay na yun. kahit anong genre din, okay lang) 3. clothes (more skirts please) 4. new boots! 5. killer shoes (those pointy or strappy ones that threatens to block blood circulation of feet.

2004-11-18T23:14:00.000-08:00

things i'm currently busy with: 1. thesis - latest news, i heard i have a new reader. have yet to confirm, otherwise i'm really happy. wehehehehehhehe 2. i'm helping someone fix his/her major offense. hay. keep your hopes up! 3. i've been asked to facilitate two events by next week, thursday and saturday. (resume na ito!) 4. more sanggu stuff-such as the seniors' exit! 5. library stuff-more

2004-11-04T06:56:00.000-08:00

Attention ATENEANS! Please be reminded that committing three minor disciplinary offenses in the Loyola Schools results in a major discipline case being filed against you before the Discipline Committee. To avoid committing unnecessary violations, please take note of the following: Smoking Policies and Sanctions for Violators Reminders regarding ID policies, violations, and sanctions Parking

2004-11-02T03:28:00.000-08:00

The Rules: 1. Write something about 15 different people.2. You can NOT say who they are.3. If someone asks you which one is about them, you can NOT tell. Hmm. Here goes..(for some reason i want an empty bottle of san mig light to ease the truth-telling out) 1. there are days when i'd imagine you'd flirt with me...so that i'd feel special. but i know better than to put meaning into the nicknames

2004-10-22T07:44:00.000-07:00

what a day. well, not that a lot happened. actually, i slept most of the day off. hah. Rita was correct in saying that i only need about two or three straight days off. if i do nothing productive for as long as one week i'd be bored to death. so i guess i'm thankful that i barely have a sembreak. after all: three days evsem for sanggu (oct18-20) one day evsem for Senior Year council (oct21)

2004-10-16T07:44:00.000-07:00

tang inang pakshets! SEMBREAK NA! I'M TEMPORARILY FREE AS A MULAWIN! WHEEE! jubilation! now to write chapters 2-6 of thesis. mehn...

2004-10-05T08:49:00.000-07:00

Wappy wrote a wonderful piece for his modern drama class, but as a woman (god, i love using that term. WOMAN. although i hardly look it. i can pass for 13 if i really want to)...hay. sorry. history has been too cruel to women that's why i'm finding it hard to sympathize with the sentiments expressed in the piece. but its well written and brilliantly put together. but something in me just won't

2004-09-24T21:29:00.000-07:00

a lot of people, surprisingly, are doing their thesis on blogging. i've found two people, coming from different home departments and schools, and considering that blogging/online publishing is a new thing, two people studying it, is already a lot. the other one asked me to be his subject, because i maintain two blogs and then even write on a real, hardcore diary. i refused, because "studying"

2004-09-18T21:56:00.000-07:00

fine. i'll admit it. there's another online journal under my name. polluting the internet with more random thoughts that happen to be dirtier than usual. haha. but i'll leave the exact domain to myself. i mean come on, sobrang dami niyo na lang na oras kung hahanapin niyo pa. in between writing the history reflection paper, editing theology paper, finishing the details for SOH week opening, and

2004-09-10T19:00:00.000-07:00

From Lalaine Castillo IV-AB Lit (Eng)> >Sir, >this is a bad poem. all apologies! :( > Not quite, Lalaine. I believe it's more than salvageable. My remarks are in ALL CAPS. Stone, Papyrus, Clay. It has been written that way as how our palms have been marked by matching lines that direct our lives, THOSE FIRST 3 LINES ARE ACTUALLY A GOOD START. I WOULD REPLACE THE COMMAWITH A PERIOD, THOUGH,

2004-08-28T04:39:00.000-07:00

first and foremost: Lin's new number--i dont know if i announced this before-- 09154324870. :) the line has been terminated, and as if automatically, i have not been texting people as much. hmm. i guess the idea of a finite resource really does hit you, one way or another. hahaha. secondly, phase one of thesis proposal is nearly done. once we all hand it in on monday, 12 noon, i will rush to the

2004-08-18T09:14:00.000-07:00

two updates in one: as per everyone's request: whahaha. as if! there's nothing really significant to write, well, maybe except that i met someone really funny and really hot and smart two weeks ago and officially, we are friends. and i cannot ask for anything more. he has a girlfriend, and i dont really care (do not think of it in that way) because i'm after his nerdness, his dorkiness, and

2004-08-14T04:31:00.000-07:00

BEYOND!!!! i love this new thing on blogger!!! may mga kulay. may eraser!!! ano ba yan!!! i shwer. anyway. ito ang latest developments: 1. i'm taking review classes for the LAE (law aptitude exams). 1-5pm, every saturday. meaning di na ako uuwi ng bahay till matapos ito. hahaha. nakakatuwa ang nangyari sa akin bago ako dumating sa ganitong realization. katakot-takot na discernment. (kunwari

2004-07-25T06:19:00.000-07:00

I take it all back. Yes, he’s a brilliant person, and one can really tell that he’s a fantastic teacher. But then his skills and patience will do little to rescue me from the downward spiral of problems that I continually find myself going through. My thesis adviser might just give up on me. And this is what I can promise him and the rest of the world—I promise diligence and hard work to

2004-07-19T15:46:00.000-07:00

among the recessive genes present in human DNA is that of the dimple. Perhaps the first thing one notices upon being introduced to Lin are her dimples—one on each cheek. They seem to be present all the time, a permanent facial fixture whether she is wearing a smile, an “o” of surprise, or a laugh. Lin’s dimples are so deeply-imbedded on her face, someone may find pleasure at the allusion of pain

2004-07-15T08:41:00.000-07:00

hmm... sorry. for. not. updating. i. finally. succumbed to the jealously that i've been feeling towards the users of another weblog. why? because they can add their friends, edit their comments link...and stuff. but blogger is way prettier. and it makes personalizing, tweaking, editing entries and templates way easier. so. now what? i guess i better have enough crap to write about! i

2004-07-01T04:09:00.000-07:00

hmm.. what happens to me is that when i start the week late, i usually finish it off being late too. for some reason it just happens that way. so. guess how i started this week and guess how i ended it. but i'm really i'm back home. i spent three hours straight in front of the tv because i've been missing it like hell (just like a boyfriend maybe? hmmm...), and together with television, i

2004-06-26T14:47:00.000-07:00

let's try to stick this one out. :) ... but really, do i want to write an update about that considering that people actually read my stuff? but then again, i must erase the other entries. hihi. precautions, precautions.

2004-06-20T07:50:00.000-07:00

(the first line of this entry is from a radio talk show that I religiously listen to not because I like what the DJ’s discuss, but because I’m after the good music that the radio station plays. the rest are mine.) What is college? College is the last time to screw things up. In college one enjoys a lot of second chances, and is entitled to multiple ways of getting out of trouble: there’s always

2004-06-16T03:41:00.000-07:00

How to make a lincastillo Ingredients: 1 part competetiveness 3 parts courage 3 parts energy Method:Layer ingredientes in a shot glass. Add lustfulness to taste! Do not overindulge! Username: Personality cocktailFrom Go-Quiz.com

2004-06-14T16:42:00.000-07:00

(delete, delete, delete) Why even bother to write stuff about him? Let’s talk about me. (Whoops, I might have to scratch the first paragraph if we really are focusing on ME). But at the end of the day, that’s where I get my definition anyway…at least of myself. Always in reference to another person. I feel that I am not proactive enough in terms of matters of the heart, nor can I readily talk

2004-06-08T23:43:00.000-07:00

The dorm experience finally revealed. When taken collectively, I have slept in my dorm for more than seven days, and by far that’s the most number of days that I have spent away from home…at least outside the context of a vacation or a five-day leadership training seminar. My bedroom at home is small…to say the least. I have very few pieces of furniture (a monobloc chair, a study table, two

2004-05-29T03:11:00.000-07:00

Summer routine, outside Sanggu and Days meetings: 1. after morning rituals (bathroom trip, toothbrush, etc.) watch NBA playoff game of the day and then followed by Morning Girls and Japanese Anime at Animax 2. take a bath 3. Lunch 4. watch Oprah and then watch other reruns on ETC 5. call companies for marketing or type emails or whatever 6. dinner 7. use internet (check email, YM, update blog,

2004-05-26T00:20:00.000-07:00

i think i'm in love with this prince charming.

2004-05-24T20:47:00.000-07:00

just in time for the upcoming A-days batch: "Your the best kept secret of my generation. and i found you out." -by skillet i'm beggining to appreciate the Against the Flow show at NU. maybe because i've been sleeping really, really late (and waking up late as well) and i don't turn off my radio anymore, or because i'm involved in A-days again, after skipping two consecutive batches. i'm loving

2004-05-18T01:45:00.000-07:00

Guess who was nominated to be one of the Sanggu representatives for the Dorms committee for the Loyola Schools (echoing Elle Woods’ expression when she found out that got in the prestigious internship program)… ME!!!! But the thing is, the circumstances behind the so-called nomination were something that I shouldn’t be proud of, but hey, let me hold my ground on that. Are Central board

2004-05-16T02:42:00.000-07:00

The stench of defeat is appalling. But then I have my own reliable set of air-fresheners anyway. And just like that (snap), the motivation to jog has returned. I went to The Fort last Tuesday for an interview regarding my application for an internship program. It has proven to be one of the cooler internship programs that I’ve stumbled upon, considering its for MTV-ASIA and not just random

2004-05-08T06:19:00.000-07:00

I don’t know particularly when I posted this entry (but according to my files this was dated April 19th), or if this is the exact same version, but here’s the dreadful part of me eating my words, quietly binging on well-articulated thoughts that I vowed I will stand by for the longest that I can. I think it gives me that feeling of liberation—I don’t have to be tied down by senseless crushes,

2004-05-06T22:06:00.000-07:00

update...update.... im using technically free internet here in school (because as far as i am concerned, the internet services provided during summer was paid off by those who are taking summer classes...ergo, i am able to leech off them, since the people manning the terminals are not very strict), and well, TODAY has a very high probability of being boring. for one, i woke up...on the wrong

2004-04-29T17:43:00.000-07:00

nick joaquin passed away yesterday. "All pens must bow. a bending of ink to th death of a drunken legend. A thrust on paper, a hole, a hollow tear for the man and his time." -Pat Tirano Philippine Literature will never be the same. Thank you for great works. :)

2004-04-28T06:58:00.000-07:00

HE'S EVERYWHERE I TELL YOU!!! EVERYWHERE!!!! gyaaaaaaaaaaaaaah...a friend told me before that we make our own signs..but... its the name of some random kid following me up the escalator inside SM Department store. its the name of a car wash along mindanao avenue its...its....!!!!! with all the same pronounciation. What's up????? sigh...i hope he comes on friday. ;) (gollum mode: SNAP OUT

2004-04-26T07:42:00.000-07:00

I sat through half of Crossroads, Britney Spears’ debut film which joined the ranks of…Glitter, especially in terms of acting and lame ass storylines. Utterly predictable and absolutely nothing original (there’s not even an attempt to make it original. No daring twists/turn of events that would have made it somehow worth it.), the film though has one merit, but on a positively superficial level.

2004-04-25T06:46:00.000-07:00

i h8 t wen ppl typ lyk dis outsyd d 150 chrctr lmit of a celphne. spell it fucking out man. how hard can it be????? the keys in a keyboard were positioned as such so that our fingers can easily find a letter to form and spell words. why do you think the letter Q and Z are placed at the corners of a keyboard? sigh...

2004-04-25T04:11:00.000-07:00

went shopping today!! :) and for the glorious price of P3000, here's what i managed to snag in a total of two hours: 1. acid washed jeans from Tubby (Which, may i add, i am down to a size Medium, from a large!!! Jubilation) 2. three pairs of slippers (two of which cost P99!!!) 3. half a dozen undies (bikini style) 4. a set of nice rubber bands and two atomizers for my perfumes/colognes 5. two new

2004-04-20T08:30:00.000-07:00

What is your emo band name? by spiralinghaloYour band name is:Robots of Long Island StreetsYou sound like:Foo FightersYou will be signed to:Jive RecordsYour emo lyrics are:"I miss the way you used to know who I was"Name:Created with the ORIGINAL MemeGen!

2004-04-20T08:29:00.000-07:00

eto na ang the best blog entry EVER. What Makes You Sexy? by eva71Name/NickNameGenderSexy Body Part IsEverythingSpecial Talents AreEverything (Multi-talented)Created with the ORIGINAL MemeGen!

2004-04-19T23:29:00.000-07:00

i so knew it. :) since my mom and i traded phones (i think ours is the only household where people actually want to have a 5110 unit), i shopped for possible operator logos online. when i saw one particular logo, i knew that every P15 spent on downloading it is worth it. it's a simple operator logo, a black and white (naturally, my phone was upgraded to a 3310..nothing fancy) picture of

2004-04-17T04:02:00.000-07:00

sanngu room clean up today was fun...although i have to say that by the time rayshel, marijo, ira and i met with the people who'll help us with our surveys, i was feeling really...annoyed. maybe its the heat, or maybe its the idea that i killed the car's engine (much to my horror) while taking a u-turn in katipunan....i dont know. but for sure the happy-happy-joy-joy-perky me was gone by the time

2004-04-16T17:56:00.000-07:00

26 or so things that a perfect guy would do for you: 1. Knows how to make you smile when you are down. 2. Tries to secretly smell your hair, but you always notice. 3. Sticks up for you, but still respects your independence. 4. Gives you the remote control during the game. 5. Comes up behind you and puts his arms around you. 6. Plays with your hair. 7. His hands always find yours. 8.

2004-04-16T07:44:00.000-07:00

today was...fun and tiring. fun, because i had lunch with Rita (hi love!) and we had a great marathon conversation over lunch as kenny rogers (this extends to YM too), and two, because i had one of my "healthier" lunch and dinners without so much teasing coming from people. I had seafood chowder in a bread bowl for lunch, and california maki for dinner, and yes, this is all due to the running

2004-04-13T01:36:00.000-07:00

Hearing: Roxette, “Almost Unreal.” (I love when you do the hocus pocus to me/the way that you touch/you got the power to heal/you give me that look/it’s almost unreal/so unreal) I wonder what happened to this wonderful duo. Theirs was the first (ever) compact disc I bought, meaning our household only started supporting those huge CD components (displayed so proudly in the living room), or any

2004-04-12T03:54:00.000-07:00

tanginangpakshets!!!! A 3.4! I finally made it! :) woo-hoooooo!!!!

2004-04-09T23:06:00.000-07:00

Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4. no book near me right now. im outside my room Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first? formal dining table What is the last thing you watched on TV? 7th heaven reruns WITHOUT LOOKING, guess what time it is: ten minutes before two pm Now look at the clock; what is the actual time? 1:52 With the exception

2004-04-07T07:32:00.000-07:00

Back from the Formation seminar… Exactly what Boyet said…you’d want to stay in Laguna just because it’s a little cooler compared to Manila. But then again, being the person that I am, I have my own reasons for wanting to stay in Laguna…along with certain persons of course! Where to start? Well, I heard that Rita had a great time during A24. And even if I wasn’t there to celebrate the entry

2004-04-03T05:51:00.000-08:00

I guess packing for A-days has taught me how to travel light. For the Sanggu Form seminar (4 days and 3 nights), I only have a sports bag and a back pack. The key things that I have to make sure that I have are clothes (duh—how can one forget to bring clothes?), your own deodorant, soap and toothbrush. Everything else (like shampoo, facial wash, even towels if you’re not that iffy about hotels/

2004-04-01T02:46:00.000-08:00

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